If you are reading this, you’re experiencing another episode of depression. I know you’re not surprised. You knew the previous episode wasn’t your last. That’s why you wrote this letter, and I’m proud that you remembered to read it because this nasty illness skews your perception and lies about life. My purpose in writing this missive is to help provide a little balance and remind you of what is waiting for you once the storm passes.
First, what you are feeling is not your fault. You have been experiencing this dread for well over two decades and it always comes and goes in waves and without reason. Despite the advise from people with good intentions, there are no external influences causing this sadness and you cannot choose to suddenly be happy again. I’m sorry.
Second, try hard to remember that you have a wonderful life. There are five cats that depend on you and love you unconditionally. There is a partner who has never (not even once) abandoned you because your low times were too difficult for him to deal with. There is a family who is proud of who you grew up to be. There are friends who support and encourage your aspirations. Because of this, you are one lucky man.
Third, hang on tight to something until the storm passes. Sometimes the storm is brief, but I’m not going to lie, sometimes this inclement emotion lasts for weeks. Just remember that it DOES end. Eventually.
And finally, depression is an asshole. It enjoys stirring up negative memories like sediment. Do not linger on them. They’ll eventually settle again if you don’t give them power.
You are loved, Cary. I know you don’t believe this at the moment, but trust me because I’m writing this letter from a good and reasonable state of mind. You just keep watching your MST3K and Rifftrax episodes to help you get through this, and I’ll see you again on the other side.
From the heart,
PS – To help you laugh or smile, here’s your favorite captioned cat photo:
And your favorite joke:
Q. What is the difference between a blonde and a computer?
A. You only have to punch information into a computer once.